Week ending: May 21st
Starting weight: 217
Ending weight: 219
Overall emotion: Hopeful
This week contained the biggest mindset breakthrough I’ve ever had in terms of health and weight loss. My numbers may not reflect it, but this is a process and a journey. Once I can get my mindset fully where it needs to be, I’ll be able to keep moving forward.
Comparing myself to where I was this time last year was also a big eye opener. Last year, I was trying to lose weight and I was having a hard time losing anything until around July. I came across pictures of Easter 2016 where I weighed the same I do now. While weight is important for me because of my food sensitivities, I do want to point out that it’s just a number. In the Easter pictures, I’m a size 18 pants and an XXL shirt. In the picture from this week, I’m a tight size 14 and an XL shirt. Two things I attribute my body shape change to are fasciablasting and T-Tapp. The FasciaBlaster and T-Tapp links are not an affiliate links, I love that product so much that everyone in my family has one and I love sharing about what it has done for me.
Before and after pictures can be such an invaluable tool. I was so down on myself when I realized I had gained back all 30 pounds that I had lost last year, but seeing those pictures made me realize I’ve still come so far.
What Went Well This Week
Tapping helped me break through some big blocks I couldn’t identify before. I was working on getting rid of my cravings for white chocolate chip cookies and I kept doing round after round of tapping. These cookies are pretty much the best cookies ever. We get them at a local burger joint, Burgerville, and they’re Otis Spunkmeyer, fresh baked, and one of the only cookies we can all eat without having mood issues or joint pain. Regular brown chocolate is out of the picture for us and that is frustrating so we’ve turned to these cookies.
After about the 4th round, I realized that I didn’t want to give them up because I feel like I’ve had to give up so many foods I enjoy. I’m resentful of all the foods I can’t eat without being miserable. I don’t want there to be one more food I can’t have. I had a good, ugly cry that lasted a few minutes, and is a great sign of emotions or blocks being cleared. I do the cravings tapping with a piece of the food in front of me and by the end of it, I still had cookie in front of me that I had no desire to eat! Here’s how I do it, the description contains a link to the video I learned it from.
Another thing that went well was just realizing that I’m okay in my body. There are a lot of things I want to change, but I’m okay. If I keep up the negativity, why would I want to change? I can’t beat myself down and expect awesome results. I’m going to embrace myself.
Last night I wanted some pizza filled with all the great stuff I can’t have. I’m talking gooey cheese, slightly under baked stuffed crust, the works. I was about to give in and I realized that if I don’t start making better choices now, I’m going to be wishing I did later. I can’t keep hoping to start, I need to just keep making better choices and reprogramming my brain. Instead of having the pizza, I did a few rounds of tapping until my craving was at a zero, I drank some kombucha, and went to bed. Honestly, when I truly stepped back and asked myself, I wasn’t really hungry. It felt good waking up this morning and realizing that I didn’t give in!
What Didn’t Go Well
I gained weight. That means I had a lot of my food sensitivities. I’ll start out a day really strong and then eat one or two things I’m sensitive to. Giving in to one or two things in a day filled with other healthy choices may be okay for some people, but for me it can be detrimental. Even though sensitivities aren’t immediately life threatening, they cause a lot of inflammation. I can gain anywhere from one to four pounds in one day depending on what and how much I eat. This isn’t just “water weight” that drops off the next day. It takes a good week to lose what I gain in one day. On the flip side of this, once I’m losing weight and avoiding all of my allergens, I can steadily lose weight. Now to get to that weight loss mode…
I also started out this week with the intention to have meat, veggies, and fruit only. This put me in a scarcity mindset. I ended up having way too many cookies and other baked goods because I was so worried about not being able to have them. I won’t be doing that to myself this week!
I tried a new brand of chips that made me really bloated and I gained about 3 pounds over a few days before realizing they were the culprit. That was frustrating because it happened on days I was otherwise doing really well. It can be doubly discouraging thinking you’re doing the right thing and then still ending up with bad results.
My Plan for Next Week
This coming week I am going to focus on more tapping. I have healthy foods in my fridge and freezer and I’m going to choose those first. If a craving comes up for something I shouldn’t be eating, I’m going to do the cravings tapping. What I love most about that one is how customizable it is. I can do it without a video in front of me and that’s going to really help this week.
Do you find that taking a restrictive approach helps or hurts your progress?